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I WAS SINCERELY AFFECTED WITH THIS DISCOURSE, AND, INDEED, WHO COULD BE OTHERWISE? AND I RESOLVED NOT TO THINK OF GOING ABROAD ANY MORE, BUT TO SETTLE AT HOME ACCORDING TO MY FATHER’S DESIRE. I BEGAN NOW SERIOUSLY TO REFLECT UPON WHAT I HAD DONE, AND HOW JUSTLY I WAS OVERTAKEN BY THE JUDGMENT OF HEAVEN FOR MY WICKED LEAVING MY FATHER’S HOUSE, AND ABANDONING MY DUTY. BUT MY ILL FATE PUSHED ME ON NOW WITH AN OBSTINACY THAT NOTHING COULD RESIST; AND THOUGH I HAD SEVERAL TIMES LOUD CALLS FROM MY REASON AND MY MORE COMPOSED JUDGMENT TO GO HOME, YET I HAD NO POWER TO DO IT. I HAIL NO REMEDY BUT TO GO ON: I HAD GOT INTO AN EMPLOYMENT QUITE REMOTE TO MY GENIUS, AND DIRECTLY CONTRARY TO THE LIFE I DELIGHTED IN, AND FOR WHICH I FORSOOK MY FATHER’S HOUSE, AND BROKE THROUGH ALL HIS GOOD ADVICE.